Happy For Once

Well here I go again. I'm not sure what world I'm in right now, but I'm happy and it feels great. For the first time in my life someone is interested in me and I'm not chasing and he's not chasing but we are getting closer everyday. I know I have a crush on him but because of my past I'm afraid to think I might be in love, my mind has tricked me that way before. He says we're friends but everything we do is boyfriend/girlfriend stuff. There have been moments when I have really wanted to call him babe and eve tell him that I love him. I'm holding back my feelings because I'm also afraid to pressure or scare him away. I think he is the same as me though because he does very sweet things for me that shows me he must feel the same way. I would love to jump into this head firs right now but I want to see every part of him before things move on. I definatley have feelings more than friends. I feel like his woman and he treats me like his woman and he expects me to behave like his woman...but we call each other friends....it's kinda bugging me a little bit because I think we're in denial about the relationship. It's all good though because other than that I am totally happy with how it is now...I just don't have a title. I can accept that for now, it's still new. It is very emotional when we are in bed though, he takes my breath away like no other. He is gentle and caring but so strong and protective. I have always wanted to feel secure in that a man would and could stand up for me and protect me and thats what he does. He makes me feel like his...like I'm part of something. When I'm with him I feel safe and warm. The time goes by so fast though and I don't want to miss a single moment with him. I never thought I could feel this way.